Head underwater
I look for the sky
My lungs are on fire
I’m fighting the tide

I'm so afraid of the morning I don't wake up
But I'm more afraid of living forever.
I cut off all my hair
But forgot to untie the ribbon.

I mastered the shape you wanted to see
Come from my lips and teeth
I’ve spent so long pretending
To be as happy as you wanted me

Don’t lie about the shame you feel when I say I’m not getting better
Because no matter how hard I work on myself, I’m always disappointed

Rather than smiling like the people with the straightest teeth
I’ve sought a self-portrait, how I think I should be
So no matter how wide, there’s a gap in my smile
The ash in my bones will keep it clean

It’s a life on repeat repeat repeat repeat
If our dreams are only cyclical then where is the progress?
Misconstrued my pyromania for selfishness
The heartless hang empty lockets from their necklaces

So we cried for our mothers
While our fathers fought our wars
We lined the pockets of our brothers
And called our sisters whores

And this is our condition
A chronic shame we bury deep
Make certain it feels ingrained
The guilt must come naturally
If we don’t fear each other
And we don’t hate ourselves
Then we may come together
And make something else

Don’t lie about the shame you feel when I say I’m not getting better
Because no matter how hard I work on myself, I’m always disappointed

Rather than smiling like the people with the straightest teeth
I’ve sought a self-portrait, how I think I should be
So no matter how wide, there’s a gap in my smile
The ash in my bones will keep it clean

It’s a life on repeat repeat repeat repeat
If our dreams are only cyclical then where is the progress?
Misconstrued my pyromania for selfishness
The heartless hang empty lockets from their necklaces

One day we
Will both be